Hmmm, i think the title is not clear enough. So to being with i actually manage to find ASH .Yeah so random i really found her, was not expecting it!!!!!!!! All thanks the creation of Mark Zuckerberg ( for those of you dont know him; he made Facebook)
Actually the first day i spoke to her i can't sleep coz i was to freaking excited that she even replied my HI, yeah i know this may sound lame, so basically if anyone of you would be in my position, u might juz understand it.HAIZ i had to take my sinus medicine juz to knock myself for that nite.Best part i woke up at 6.00 am when the alarm was for 7.00 am.Haha i went to work was waiting for the time to hit home so that i can talk to her again.So then i talk to her again, stupidly ask for her number,she gavelar but i think i was moving at the speed of F1 on race day, coz she wanted to know what was the thing in school that i had for her.
I like a kepoh person ask her to read my blog post of Love Ajj Kal . There i go again telling the truth to fast to serious style. OMG kecoh me shit then she tells me that she never knew it .Haizzzz, she adds on she got bf for 4 years now. Holy Shit serious? I doubt myself for a second, was i really talking to her .Hmmmmm?
Nevermind coz i have the this concept eventough the person is not with me is okay as long as they are HAPPY !!! Haha, sometime i wanna knock myself for having this kind of concepts. Why does it always it happens to me. I think those girls who have BF should carry a board stating they are taken, so ppl like wont waste energy and brain power on them.HAHA.
Anyway i have been talking to her for almost over month,be it from work or giving encouragement to study or something like that.But disaster has struck me since sunday till now she has not spoken to me,she said she will be away and once she is back, she will let me know. Aduh she oso say we should not talk coz she broke my heart and talking to her hurts me. LOL, because of my concept if i dont talk to her i will be hurt otherwise i will be alrite.
Bree is i dunno seriously busy with assignments and mid tests on the other hand i dont wanna to disturb her coz i wanna her to do well in her final sem. But she knows wat is going on therefore is okaylar. She will know everything wan.I want Bree to finish all her stuff before actually i can talk to her .
Hmmmm, anyway i would let u all know when there is update abt ASH. Hopefully she comes back,i dont want to her to leave me.I have this stupid phobia of loosing ppl.Haiz it really kills me! Lol, 3 ppl i dont to loose for anything .
1.Family
2.Bree
3.Ash
Eventough i have a clear mind set of wat i want and wat my life is gonna be made up of it seems ever impossible to stay on track.I wanted to start eating allot aka start killing myself again,but can't do that oso made some promises which aren't really worth breaking at this or infact at any point of time. So self caring important now. LOL
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